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    A Blessing for Ascension Day
    By Jan Richardson

    I know how your mind
    rushes ahead
    trying to fathom
    what could follow this.
    What will you do,
    where will you go,
    how will you live?

    You will want
    to outrun the grief.
    You will want
    to keep turning toward
    the horizon,
    watching for what was lost
    to come back,
    to return to you
    and never leave again.

    For now
    hear me when I say
    all you need to do
    is to still yourself
    is to turn toward one another
    is to stay.

    Wait
    and see what comes
    to fill
    the gaping hole
    in your chest.
    Wait with your hands open
    to receive what could never come
    except to what is empty
    and hollow.

    You cannot know it now,
    cannot even imagine
    what lies ahead,
    but I tell you
    the day is coming
    when breath will
    fill your lungs
    as it never has before
    and with your own ears
    you will hear words
    coming to you new
    and startling.
    You will dream dreams
    and you will see the world
    ablaze with blessing.

    Wait for it.
    Still yourself.
    Stay.

    → 9:51 PM, Jul 14
  • Fish, Flash, Seed: Ideas waited for, snagged, and transplanted

    David Lynch (via Rob Walker and Austin Kleon) uses these three metaphors for a thought:

    Fish: “I believe that if you sit quietly, like you’re fishing, you will catch ideas. The real, you know, beautiful, big ones swim kinda deep down there so you have to be very quiet, and you know, wait for them to come along.”

    Flash: “If you catch an idea, you know, any idea, it wasn’t there and then it’s there! It might just be a small fragment…but you gotta write that idea down right away. And as you’re writing, sometimes it’s amazing how much comes out, you know, from that one flash…And in your mind the idea is seen and felt and it explodes like it’s got electricity and light connected to it.”

    The explosion is an agrarian one, like the moment germination errupts from inside the dark walls of a…

    Seed: So, you get an idea and it is like a seed. And…it explodes…And it has all the images and the feeling. And it’s like in an instant you know the idea, in an instant [a flash]…Then, the thing is translating that to some medium.

    Lynch talks of waiting for the ideas like fish and cathing the big ones that live deep takes the most time. The poet Ted Hughes talks about ideas like both foxes and fishes. Ideas are critters to be actively waited for and sniffed out. A practice that, Hughes says, requires surrender:

    And that process of raid, or persuasion, or ambush, or dogged hunting, or surrender, is the kind of thinking we have to learn, and if we don’t somehow learn it, then our minds line us like the fish in the pond of a man who can’t fish.

    → 9:19 AM, Sep 25
  • Treebeard in a Forest of Options

    Benedict, Bombadill, Gandalf, and Beck—
    Treebeard “supposes.” His option: “must do.”
    Given no choice, with the threat to his neck,
    he heralds his plan and follows it through.

    → 7:53 PM, Sep 11
  • Wait For It

    My anxiety shortens my breath. The fundamental instinct of respiration thwarted by fear, worry, too much time just in my head. I've learned, through the trauma of a couple panic attacks and a steady breathing practice—in thru the nose, out thru the mouth—that breathing consists in waiting (thanks for humoring the personal example).

    It might sound weird that I'm relearning how to breath as an adult. Mindfulness, meditation, contemplation, prayer-all forms of attentive breath train one to wait. I use the personal and fundamental example of patient breathing to claim that to wait is to be human. Our journey through time waits for an end.

    Here's Nick Cave on the theme:

    The idea of lyrics ‘not coming’ is basically a category error. What we are talking about is not a period of ‘not coming’ but a period of ‘not arriving’. The lyrics are always coming. They are always pending. They are always on their way toward us. But often they must journey a great distance and over vast stretches of time to get there. They advance through the rugged terrains of lived experience, battling to arrive at the end of our pen. In time, they emerge, leaping free of the unknown — from memory or, more thrillingly, from the predictive part of our minds that exists on the far side of the lived moment. It has been a long and arduous journey, and our waiting much anguished.

    → 11:27 AM, Aug 5
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